Monday, October 18, 2010

The Bowling Balls are Smaller Now




Imagine you're careening down a hill on a runaway train and those in the back keep putting more coal in the furnace and you keep going faster and faster toward the finish line, and you're almost there, but people keep throwing bowling balls onto the tracks that threaten to wreck the train. 

 
That is a pretty good description of the last year. 
The bowling balls are smaller now.  But you still have to be mindful and make careful choices to protect your "safety"  from those who truly believe that these bowling balls are necessary at any cost.  

(I can't believe I found a photo of bowling balls on a train track)

We still wake up in the middle of the night at least twice a week, trying to think everything through, and plan how we're going to get things done. Things like... B has to do so many Press Events that he needs new clothes and can't possibly keep wearing the same 10 shirts he's already been filmed and photographed in, but they won't give him enough time off to go GET the new clothes (see "bowling balls" comment above).   Now, multiply this example by at least 5.

But we're good at adapting.
We got used to prioritizing our time and every relationship.
We got used to apologizing to friends.
We got used to taking turns falling apart.
We got used to people second-guessing our truth.
We got used to our best being good enough at any given moment.
We got used to knowing that moving forward doesn't always feel like it.
And we got used to allowing good friends to help us when we needed it.


We are reminding each other daily, as we dodge the last remaining bowling balls, that things are changing.  It's just our brains expecting the worst.  Our brains have to catch up to the change.


I'm so proud of my husband, I'm bursting.
I can't find words to describe the serious emotional, physical and mental mettle it took to direct a movie with too many cooks in the kitchen, everyone panicking and being uber critical, complete with warring factions rarely being on the same page...in HALF the time these films usually take.  (this is his second time directing a film in this predicament).  Thank god he has an equally talented fellow director by his side to share the load (these films are always done with two directors, side by side). 

 (Wrap Party Screening rehearsal, 
Grauman's Chinese Theatre)

The film. Wow. 
This weekend was the Wrap Party.  More than 1000 people attended. Everyone was blown away.  Everyone was so happy.  People laughed and cried and cheered.  The view from the runaway train is very nice at this point in the journey. The bowling balls are fewer and farther between.  Just a few more really.


And we can recuperate in Paris and Sydney during those Press Junkets. 
Our brains will just have to catch up to us then. 


~Shephard :)

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