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Monday, April 25, 2011
Ants in the Pants
The signs Life and The Universe send me are rarely subtle.
And I prefer it that way, really I do.
I have accumulated 4 years of brownie points for immeasurable patience and waiting. But I am so antsy after all this time. After this long, it feels like I have an entire colony of ants in my pants.
We're waiting.
We're waiting for B's work pace to slow down (ha ha).
We're waiting for our deck to be done (2 + months).
We're waiting for contractors to follow through.
We're waiting for the right time to take our NYC trip.
We're waiting for the city to approve our solar power.
We're waiting for the pool pump to be fixed.
We're waiting to get quotes on a new neighbor/child blocking fence.
We're wiating for a friend to return, and to leave again.
We're waiting for Oboe's cold to respond to medicine.
We're waiting for the gallery to order/frame our print.
We're waiting for Landscapers' quotes.
We're waiting to use the pool and spa.
We're waiting to find the right furniture (slow going).
We're waiting to use our driveway (5 months of clutter).
Well, I don't believe that, but THAT is what it feels like. Most of these waiting issues have been drawn out over no less than 1 month, often 3 to 5. It wakes us up in the middle of the night, worrying, trying to solve problems, or desperate to create any kind of forward movement in our lives. But it's out of our hands. We are just supposed to master "waiting patiently."
I was going to draw a card for some perspective... but then I realized, I already have my answer. I popped over to my own post (from awhile back) about patience (Ants) and got a snoot full. If you want to read the Ants in B's Spaghetti story, you can go *here*... but the sentence that jumped out at me made me feel more control and patience in my life:
Patience is "... a necessary defense against the restentment of Time."
Why this sentence?
Because I already know it's all for the highest good. I already know that getting there before the "curtain rises" just makes you wait longer. I already know that Trust is the real issue, along with Fear of things not turning out right. I'm already so grateful for our lives, our home, and that we are fine, fortunate, healthy and happy. And I know without a shadow of a doubt that just around the river bend... things have already been resolved. So this leaves me with patience as a necessary defense against the resentment of Time.
Because I already know it's all for the highest good. I already know that getting there before the "curtain rises" just makes you wait longer. I already know that Trust is the real issue, along with Fear of things not turning out right. I'm already so grateful for our lives, our home, and that we are fine, fortunate, healthy and happy. And I know without a shadow of a doubt that just around the river bend... things have already been resolved. So this leaves me with patience as a necessary defense against the resentment of Time.
Embrace and trust.
Easier some days than others.
And it also reminds me of one of my other little crutches:
If I'm still breathing... I'm winning.
~Shephard :)
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